:)

the new year resolution

before the light had found the dark

before tonight had fell apart

frozen up i realized somethings gotta' change

it took a crash to understand

time kept slipping through my hands

i never used to know the sun will shine

now turn to rain

say goodbye say goodbye to the way i was before

say hello say hello to a new way

i was lost but i found what i was looking for

wakin up wakin up to a new day

into a new day

i was sleeping in a twisted dream

dying just to make believe

a pretty situation was far from where i was

but i'm not up for giving up

lying down and out of luck

but my mistakes are now in the open

and now im finally coming clean.

say goodbye say goodbye to the way i was before

say hello say hello to a new way

i was lost but i found what i was looking for

wakin up wakin up to a new day

cause everything everything ends at the start

(ends at the start)

healing and feeling all of my scars

(yeah)

- tamra kaprelian's new day

p.s: nyanyi mesti ada yeahhhh feeling! X)

ok,bye.

the blues clues

Ku telah miliki

Rasa indahnya perihku

Rasa hancurnya harapku

Kau lepas cintaku

Rasakan abadi

Sekalipun kau mengerti

Sekalipun kau pahami

Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu

Besarnya cintaku

Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini

Di setiap hariku

Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku...

- REPVBLIK Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu

ah tak boleh tidur :(

ok,bye.

the funny thing

if u love something, set it free.

if it comes back, it will always be yours.

if it doesnt come back, it was never yours to begin with.

but if it just sits in your living room,

messes up your stuff,

eats your food,

uses your telephone,

takes your money,

and doesnt appear to realize that you had set it free,

u either married it or gave birth to it.

uh uh,no no i dont want that.

good thing this is a wake up call ;)

ok,bye.

the boredom in class

i HATE Analogue Electronics II class.

i dont know why,i just hate it.

well at least i have something to do

while dr.Awan is talking~~

[EE gals]

[EE boys]

[One day,4 boys went out for a walk.

suddenly, kedengaran suara Axxx,

"tunggu tunggu!nak itot nak itot!"

-THE EnD]

[ah!this one is kudos to AIN~ who colored it so well.and put a huge KISS on him.and the pervert look.hahah thanks Ain!]

i got Analogue paper tomorrow.

but still got time to mumble about it kan?

must have been unconsciously hating it.

damn i really hate it.

ok,bye.

the one bloody night

hey,

it's halloween peeps!

(sigh) i've been waiting for this day to come but i cant even watch the movie i wanted to for so longgg.

why?

here's the story.

every year,

my friends and i agree to spend the day with some sort of tradition,

u know,

went out shopping,eat whatever we want,

and then later,we would catch a horror movie together.

last year it was Halloween i

(the story on Michael Myers,very CREEPY)

and there is a sequel, Halloween ii coming up this year's halloween.

BUT!

cis cis cis.

surprise,surprise

the movie has been banned by the Malaysia censors as it is in the R rating with "strong brutal bloody violence thru-out,terror,disturbing graphic images,crude sexual content,languange ++ .."

the movie would be heavily cut,

more disturbing images,

more violent and bloods and screams and death,

wowwww sure it makes me want to watch it even MORE la!

kan kan?

seriously LOL.haha

oh rite,

nevermind.can watch MeganFox's Jennifer's Body anyway.hahah!

so come on people,

grab yourself a costume and get ready for trick or treatin'~~~ :DD

OR

maybe u can just sit on your lazy ass,and watch some series during this weekend.

ya-lah,we are not even that WESTERN to celebrate this kind of thing pun kan.

mkn chicken chop boley pulak yeh? :P

"Halloween is the one night a year when girls can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it."

...Cady Heron (The Mean Girls movie.)

if u know what i mean. XD

wa-ha-ha-ha-ha (evil laughs)

ok,bye.

the goodbyes

In loving memory of my EDWARD, died 26 October 2009 R.I.P

my heart is crushed into pieces.

please leave me alone for a couple of weeks.

life has been hard on me.

ok,bye.

the for old times sake

hey guys,

i was thinking to share some childhood pic of me.

which is ridiculously ugly.LOL.

anyway,

my sister scanned and email-ed this to me.

eventhough it takes forever~ haha

never mind that.

at least she managed it at last.

wohoo!

as u can see i am the darkest one,

the fattest,the chubbiest,the banyak-gile-luka2-1-bdn,

the shortest and all scary traits u can ever think of

it is me...haha

how time flies so fast!

that why i hate growing up. X)

ok,bye.

the courage-the-cowardly-sofia

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak keluar dari universiti teknologi petronas.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak keluarkan semua duit dr bank dan terbang ke Eropah.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak pakai gaun kembang macam dalam cerita 'Enchanted' tu pastu pergi kelas dgn selamba.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak cakap kat pakcik guard, 'get a life boleh tak!menyaman je keje..'

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak kalerkan kereta saya kaler purple lavender.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak cubit dr.Awan pastu nasihat die supaya layan kami dengan lebih baik dan bertoleransi.kami ni manusia ok,bukan robot.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak tinggalkan segala harta yang saya ada,dan jadi chun lee.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak pergi niagara falls pahtu wat bungee jumping.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak jadi fashion designer atau pun penari balet atau pun pemain piano sampai grade 8.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak cuba pakai tudung kaler hitam.

tapi saya takde keyakinan.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak pergi OBS sekali lagi dan ambil course sebulan.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak kalahkan lipas.

tapi saya tahu saya tak mampu.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak smackdown orang yang selalu kutuk saya kat belakang.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak belikan mak saya sebuah rumah yang sangat mewah.mcm mansion.

yes ONE DAY!

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak bakar chancellor hall.sebab ada team ITMS kat situ.

sampai hati dieorg block DC++..

itu nyawa saya di sini!

the only thing that keeps me going!to UTP,for god's sake.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak belajar berenang,tapi saya takut sangat.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak berhadapan dengan masa lampau saya dan selesaikannya.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya tak tulis dah benda2 mengarut ni.

tp orang penakut mcm saya je blog2 macam ni sebab tak berani nak bising2 kat orang hahaha :D

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak tinggalkan laptop ni dan terus drive ke KL.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya nak luahkan apa yang terpendam dalam hati saya ini.

kalau lah saya ada keberanian

saya mahu mengubah diri.

kalau lah....

ok,bye.

the birthday and farewell

ain was 20 on 21092009.

but it was hari raya

so we celebrate it a little late,haa tipu je tak little pon,banyak late...

i mean,we celebrate it 2 weeks late!

(that never happen before.) XD

contrary of what i posted earlier,

katanya taknak cite pasal diri sendiri da

haha tipu je.

no no,tak tipu tapi on special occasion,

nak off sekejap ye.

pasni tak buat da.

and so the story goes...

siapa ain?

Nurul Ain Md Yazid ek?

ain was my roomate for 3 years, i.e 6 semesters.

haa tipu lagi.

actually precisely 4 semesters kot,

because we have to change roomate a lot,

RCSU yg comel lagi cerdik ponye pasal,

anyway,

we've been friends for 3 years,

which is weird and funny actually,considering she is my ex-schoolmate.

but we've never talked in school or even make an eye contact before,

not until we are in the same university.

funny kan?haha :D

and this past 3 years has been the greatest 3 years of my life. i.e LEGENDARY (haa mcm barney je)

i've learnt a lot,laughed a lot,cried also a lot,

and she has always been there for me.

always care for me,

always know how to deal with me,

always teaching me the meaning of life.

but now she is leaving me next semester for the internship.

damn u utp.

why cant the engineering and the technology students go to the internship together?

whyyyy

dahla asik blackout and tak ada air. :(

oh anyway,

i know next semester will be as empty as hell.

who'll be going to mamak with me?

who'll be sharing stories with me?

who'll hear my talks all day,all night?

who'll i tell my goofy jokes to?

who'll take care of me when i sick?

who'll be listening to my whining and crying and stupid jokes and paling penting,gossips?LMAO

who will?waaaa

haih. *sigh*

--emo mood kejap--

and and,all i can say is that,she is really special to me,

as my mom pernah quote,mati hidup balik pon bukan senang nak cari kawan yang same spirit,same kepala,same perangai and same best!

guess i should mati and hidup balik till i find the next her then?LOL XD

oh she's sleeping rite now.

dunno what to write more,

so...i should get some sleep too

i'll be missing u kiddo!

ohhh i'm about to be flooding in tears again.

ok,bye.

the raya greetings!

SALAM AIDILFITRI peeps! :))

i'm surely at my kampung rite now.

eating ketupat,

or choking down kuih raya utmost. :D

so, HAPPY eating too!

oh oh,and HAPPY BIRTHDAY my dear AIN~~

arini beshday awak,tapi kita sangat jauh.sowie :]

this is a generated message,weeks before the usual date.

no signature require. :p

and,

pictures from www.ilovecuppacakes.com :))

ok,bye.

the thanks and many thanks

i just wanna offer my thankfulness and

God,how grateful i am,

to have such a wonderful life.

and to embrace the undying love from my parents and sisters,

and caring friends,

without them,surely i'm not be able to endure those painful days,

those hours of medication,

and those unstoppable tears.

i'm fine now so,thanks to all :))

ok,bye.

the annual regret

exactly two weeks ago,

it has been one year since the incident.

but it was today that i realized,

how i wish that day did not happen.

yah.

it was just a mistake that i regretted.

not that i was going to point finger to anyone.

it's me.

i know i was to blame.

but what the hell.things like this happens.

now i know,it wasnt a wise decision.

spontaneous act.

oh well,i've always been like that.

never think before act.

waaa..

what am i trying to say actually?

urghh~~

want to say it,but cant put it into words.

and it have been kept in my head for quiet a while.

how i wish i can blurt it out

and tell u how i feel.

but obviously i dont have the courage.

just let me go,then.

ok,bye.

the birthday girl

iela,

happy 20th!

semoga sentiasa ceria dan kiut dan cantik dan bijakpandai dan menjadi ibu yg baik.ahaha~ :))

Love,

koala.

siot utp tutup.

kalau tidak wajib buat surprise party!

ok,bye.

the revolusi

telah ku tinggalkan

memori silamku itu

tidak ku biarkan

hidupku dibelit pilu

walau duka menampar dada

walau sepi mencalar hati

rinduku terhenti

ku pinggirkan sayu

yang merundung kalbuku

kasih dulu ku biar berlalu

ku pinggirkan lara

yang berpaut di jiwa

ku teruskan hidup tanpa die

padam nyala patah tumbuh

hilang kan berganti

cinta tiba cinta pergi

yang azali ku nanti

ku lupakan mu jua disini

rinduku terhenti

sejak kau pergi menjauhi

rinduku terhenti.

- tomok rindu terhenti

no matter what happen,

i want to have a happy life!

:))

ok,bye.

the inevitable email

weird.

this is total weird.

this morning,i received some notification email from yahoo messenger telling me that i havent check some missed call that was received quite while ago.

but when i check it,

it was a missed call from a person,

dated from about 2 years ago!

2 years!!

and i was notified about it after 2years?

what??

oh freak.this is insane.

so i downloaded the .mp3 based recorded missed call

i hear it,visualize it.

i figure.

ohooooo!GOD know how farrrrr my heart sunk innnnn~~~

urkkkkk.......

it was that missed call!

that night!

and overall,it was 1 minute silence,then 5 minutes talking by himself,then 1 minute silence,then back to talking.

he dont even realized ym was recording it..

erm,i am sure it is.

that familiar voice,

awkward moment,

same small giggle,

and the cursing of utp slow internet (haha.)

uhhh that long-lost feeling washed over me....

oh my,

how time flies so fast.

lembab ponye ym.

true story.

p.s: want to hear the call?click here.

ok,bye.