the lost girl

yes folks.

i am 20,

but i dont know what i want in my life.

i dont even know how to live my life

i just follow whatever life leads me to,

and bumm!

to where i am standing right now

oh,but wait

currently,i'm sitting.LOL.

haha~

yes,it might sounds weird

but if one day,

if someone asks me what i want in my life,

i probably will stare blankly and just laugh it all the way~~~

miahaha~

oh,no

not that it is funny

it's because i CANT answer that question.

sick rite?

hm.

what i want WITH my life?

what i want IN my life?

hm.

should i ask again?

what i want?

well,

i dont know what i want!

ok,dont want to sound stupid or anything

because i could probably answer it straight away.

let's say,i want......

[FAMILY]

well,i already had one.

my cool family.

i love my family!

so why should i ask a new one?

wait,what?

my OWN family?

meaning i have to build on my own?

no thanks buddy.

[FRIEND]

haha,

oh,them.

good and bad,

best and frienemy,

the lot of them.

i have many.

so i could not ask for more..

what i had now is enough,and i am thankful for that. :]

[MONEY]

i dont really need one.

in my defense,

money will eventually go out

and it cant practically buy everything

plus,if i have money on my hands

it will well,disappear!

yes,yes

i'm a shopaholic!an uncontrollable one.

go one-day shopping with me,and u'll regret honey. xp

[FUTURE]

oh no no.

i'll skip on this one.

because once i'm thinking bout it

what really hops out in my mind is the APOCALYPSE!

future is the apocalypse people!

(influence from the Supernatural series..damn~)

[BOYFRIEND]

ayaya..

it is the same as the future.

the Apocalypse people!

haha kidding.

oh well,

i dont know..

maybe i haven't found the right one?

and it kills me to have to be close to someone

because maybe the next day,

i have to stay away from him.

my insecurity prevents me to be close to almost anyone..

anyway, i would not die if i dont have a boyfriend rite?

yes it still kills inside but i'll survive. ;p

[HUSBAND]

yes i will have one.

later,

one day,

in the future.

wait wait,

future?

the Apocalypse!

waaa~

so i wont have one?

[CHILDREN]

yah yah,

go back to future.

we'll talk about it later.

[HOUSE]

i'll just watch the House series then.

[CAREER]

oh no,

dont make me start on this one.

because first of all,

i hate,bold HATE my future path!

yes,that yadda yadda electrical and electronic engineering.

i mean,who like it rite?

i dont understand any of it and i dont intend to.

then,i might ended up hating my job,

while paying back my scholarship.

that's sucks!

so what's left?

nothing!

in the end,i still dont know what i want with my life......

ok,bye.